Not Alone in this World
About a week after 9-11, I watched our President give a speech. I was at work at CBS' The Bold and the Beautiful and it was early in the morning. Our President said, “It’s heartening to know that we are not alone in this world.” He was talking about nations coming to our side in a time of crisis. Well, that morning, I understood what he was talking about in a different sense.
That morning, I was going through a hard, heartbreaking time myself. In the kitchen, I was still wiping away tears as one of our Producers/Directors, Cindy said, “Good Morning!” I was trying not to look at her but she saw that I was crying and asked, “What’s wrong?” After a moment of pause, I plainly said, “It’s hard to break up with someone.” I was trying to hold it together, but it was really not going so well. I started to tear up again and muttered, “I’ll be okay.” But really, I felt as if I was faking it! I went on to tell her that I have good days and I have bad days and that yesterday was okay but today, I just feel sad and depressed. Today was my bad day, I said.
Lo and behold, she looked me straight in the eyes and said, “Well, my bad day was yesterday. I have to hold it together today and tomorrow because I am directing. My boyfriend and I broke up as well.” She said that during her previous bad day her whole body was in shock and that she still had this pit in the bottom of her stomach but she needed to just keep it together. She had only told one other person because it was so hard for her to talk about. I told her I understood and that if she needed to talk to someone, I would be there. She echoed the same sentiment for me. I knew exactly what she was going through because I was going through it too. We hugged, both teared up a bit and I felt – not alone in this world.